I'm sitting here a little bored so I figured I'd blog a bit.
There's been a lot going on in my life right now and I think it might be good to get it out. It may sound like a lot of whining but I assure you, that's exactly what it is. I just need to vent. I know other people have more serious problems in their lives and I'm not completely oblivious to that, but it's really hard to help other people fix their lives when I feel completely powerless to fix mine.
First of all, I need to get either a second crappy job, or a completely new better job. I'm going to school to be a bartender but no one will hire me until I'm 21. In the meantime I have applied to several restaurants and even Target and Wal*Mart. I also have been realizing and chastising myself for my shopping problem. I've joked about having a shopping problem but until last night I never realized to actual extent of it. I never opened my bank statements. My dad once told me to save them... So I throw the unopened envelopes into a file in my drawer. Well, I was cleaning and I decided it was time to organize them. I did the same thing with my pay stubs from DOTS. In 2009 I made roughly $7,000 at DOTS alone. I also did graphic work, and temp work. Currently I owe a good deal of money to a handful of people and have $2.18 in my checking account and $5.79 in my savings. I spend money on clothes, shoes, DVDs, going to movies, dancing, food, gas, other people, my car, and insurance. Some of those are neccessary... but I really need to reevaluate my spending habits. It's not even like I pay full price for clothes or DVDs. I either purchase second hand or with a discount. But it doesn't matter. Quanity over weighs the Quality. It doesn't matter how much I save if I shop often. So, I'm going to cut back considerably on my shopping. I'm also going to try and find a job that is not DOTS because I can not keep that discount. It's too taunting to shop whenever we get new shipment or markdowns (which are next week btw).
Another reason I need to start saving is because I am determined to get my own place by this fall. My dad and I aren't going to be in our house much longer. He's moving in with his fiance and her son and unless a large amount of money miraculously falls into my lap, I'm going to have to go with for a while. I really don't want to for a few reasons. A few of the superficial reasons are; the room is a little bigger than some walk-in closets I've seen, the closet may as well be non-existant, and even though the bathroom is attached to my room- I'll be sharing said bathroom with my soon-to-be-step-brother who will have to come through my room any time he needs to use the bathroom. I wont be able to have friends over because if more than one person is in that room at a time it can get clausterphobic. But more than all of that, I feel like if I move out on my own before we lose the house I feel like I may have some control over what is happening in my own life. Now, I know even thinking I have control of my life is a joke. "Wanna make God laugh? Tell him your plans." But it would be nice to feel like I'm actually moving forward with my life.
For now though, I've started packing and going through things. We really don't know if we'll be here another month or the rest of the summer but I'm just getting a jump start on things. I'm also thinking a yard sale is in order. Not sure how much I'll get for half this crap but whatever... every little bit helps.
I'm glad I got that out. It all still bothers me but it's still a little better.
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